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On Saturday, Affinia (Mark's place of employment) held it's annual healthcare sreenings.  These are required for individuals who don't want their deductibles to go up $1000.00.  We don't, so we went.  I think Mark and I both knew it wasn't gonna be pretty.  They added your waist measurement to the screeninga this year.  Ya.  Not good.  Well, my stuff basically said that I've gained 15 lb. from two years ago.  My BMI, weight, and cholesterol were in unhealthly levels.  It was comical the way I tried to defend it.  (My cholesterol)  "Well.  I've had surgery."  "That shouldn't effect it."  "Well, I have a thyroid condition."   "Shouldn't effect it."  "Oh, I forgot.  I drank a protein shake this morning."  "Wouldn't effect it."  I have never, ever, ever, ever, had a problem with cholesterol.  I've been able to eat anything I've ever wanted, and still never suffered from high cholesterol.  Oh, my chloesterol-250.  Well, you're probably assuming that Mark's cholesterol was 332, yep that's right.  Not good.  Mark is stressed out, max'd out, pushed, pulled prodded and pooped.  He usually eats 1 meal a day, 1 unhealthly meal a day.  Well, he was extremely discouraged by this news.  Like I said, we both expected this, but for some reason when we actually heard it, it was overwhelming.  We didn't go out and run a marathon or buy a treadmill Saturday night.  In fact we didn't do anything.  And what's worse, last night when we got home from church, I didn't eat any dinner.  Then at about 9:00, I popped some popcorn and added buttery topping.  Oh, that's not all.  I then added about 500 dark hershey kisses and melted it in the microwave.  No.  I'm not kidding.  Well as the butter and chocolate were pouring down my face, the phone rang.  "Hey.  What are you doing."  "Nothing.  What are you doing."  "Uh.  I got a ticket."  "A ticket.  This is not good Meagan.  Not good."  "I know I'm sorry.  Are you mad at me?"  "No.  I'm not mad.  I just hope your insurance doesn't go up double, 'cause that's a problem.  A big problem."  "How fast were you going?' "70 in a 55."  So, as we speak, Mark is making phone calls and seeing what the options are.

You know I was thinking about this cholesterol thing, and the speeding too.  Was I sorry that I've eaten really poorly, or was I sorry that I got caught with a bad health report?  Was Meagan sorry she sped or sorry she got caught with a ticket?  The answer for both is probably sorry that we were caught.  The Bible says that you're sins will find you out, and they will, but you don't have to wait until they do.  It would've been much easier for me to be doing the right thing all along, and for Meagan to have not sped, and not have to deal with a ticket, and me and Mark. 

You know sin separates us from God.  Pure and simple.  God will allow us to suffer the consequences of our choices when He has to.  To get us back on track.  But we can do an about face right now.  We don't have to wait until we get caught.  But I think alot of people are confused about repentance, and sometimes I forget too.  I'm sorry that I've eaten a stick of butter probably every other day for the past 20 years.  I'm sorry that I eat more than most men, including but not limited to my husband.  I'm sorry that I'm this way.  But will that sorrow change things????  No.  I will have to adjust and change my behavior.  That's where alot of us are with sin. We really are sorry.  But not sorry enough to walk away.  And the bottom line is that's not good enough, if you want to get back in a right relationship with Christ.  I think alot of people take their sin to the alter, lay it down, get back up and take it with them.  Tears are shed, because the people are genuinely sorry, but not repentant. 

2 Chronicles 7:14 14 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.

God isn't ok with sin.  He doesn't wink at it.  He doesn't sweep it under a big rug in heaven.  It has to be dealt with.  My sin has to be dealt with.  Your sin has to be dealt with.  How do we deal with it?  Admit it, accept it. Don't tell God the reason that you're sinning is because of another person.  He doesn't want to hear that.  I do believe you can pour out your heart in an open expression of your feelings to God.  And you should.  But when stand before God in heaven we won't be able to blame others, so there's no need to form that habit here now.   Repent.  God's forgiven you, so you need to forgive you.  Does this mean you'll never sin again??  No.  And if you've been living your life based on forgiveness you received 20 years ago, you probably need to search your life a bit.  God is love and he wants to give us every good thing.  But sin, builds that wall between us and Him.  The price has already been paid.  Just accept His forgiveness, and turn your back on ANYTHING that moves you away from God.

Praying for you.

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