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Miracle??

visioncgbc | January 14, 2008 05:59

Church was good yesterday. I know I always say that, but it was. I just loved it when Jill sang and talked before hand about the forgiveness that might be holding people back from God's best. What I mean by saying I loved it, is that she felt led to say something, so she said it. If Christians would begin to do whatever the Holy Spirit prompts them to do, (myself included) my what would happen!!! Roger preached on our Sunday School classes theme verse, Proverbs 29:18 which says: Where there is no vision the people perish. It's so true in my own life. When I loose a future vision and hope for my life, "Yuck!" I had been trying to remember a particular day in The Purpose Driven life which talks about a darkness of the soul, and ironically today I was possibly going to do the devotion at M&M, so I decided to reference the book. Guess what day 14 is on?? Exactly what I was going to tell my friend-When God seems distant. I think sometimes when our life is like day 14 in Purpose driven life, if we're not careful, we loose our vision. We feel rejected, but we're not. We feel alone, but we're not. We feel forsaken, but we're not. I'm gonna hit some of the high points of the lesson:

"The deepest level of worship is praising God in spite of pain, thanking God during a trial, trusting him when tempted, surrendering while suffering, and loving him when he seems distant. To mature your friendship, God will test it with perios of seeming separation-times when it feels as if he has abandoned or forgotten you. In utter desperation, you cry out"What's the matter with me" The truth is there's nothing wrong with you! This is a normal part of the testing and maturing of your friendship with God. Every Christian goes through it at least once, and usually several times. It is painful and disconcerting, but it is absolutely vital for the development of your faith. Tell God exactly how you feel. Pour out your heart to God. Focus on who God is-his unchanging nature. Trust God to keep his promises. Remember what God has already done for you. For God has said, 'I will never leave you; I will never abandon you'" Hebrews 13:5"

After church we went to Winter Jam. The day just went so smoothly. I was stressed a bit because of taking Chloe. I didn't know if she'd last, but she did. The only "issue" was a bathroom crisis when she determined that she had to go to the bathroom right before we were getting on the charter bus to come home. The "fit" lasted I dunno, maybe 15 minutes or so, and she ended up using the commode on the charter bus, and then she got ok. Thanks Adam E.

Oh, I forgot to tell you the whole CD situation. Well, Lee Ann had suggested I take my song that I wrote for the American Idol songwriting competition to try and give to Mandisa. For those of you who don't know, Mandisa was an American Idol contestant, who is a Christian. She was insulted by Simon Cowell because of her weight, but then publically forgave him, and now her platform is forgiveness, and the Hand of God, as well as a woman trying to reach a healthy weight. She is a part of the Winter Jam line-up this year. I didn't have any blank cds, and I knew it, so I didn't think I'd be taking my song to try and give to her. Sunday morning I went in Meagan's room to ask her if she had any blank cds, but I knew she didn't. Ali had spent the night with Meagan Saturday. When I asked Meagan about the cds, she said "Ali has some, they're laying right there." Well, this changed everything! It's already about 8:30 or so. I ask Mark if he can burn the cds. It caused him to be late for church, which is one of his total pet peaves, but he did it anyway. So, I just knew I was gonna get my songs to Mandissa. They had a leaders meeting beforehand, and I went. We were gonna have access to some of the artists, and I just knew she'd be one of them, she wasn't. At the intermission, she was signing autographs. Me, Chloe, Holly, Rachel, Rebekah, and Meagan B. all got in line. Along with 100,000 other people. We were probably 15-20 people away and she stopped signing. People start trying to follow her, me included. So with security surrounding her, me and about 20 twelve year old girls try to get to her, but we didn't. We went to the restroom and Megan said "let's go to her table and try and give it to the people there." I overheard a girl asking the table lady to give her something and she said "No." One of the guys from NewSong was signing, so Megan said "Give it to him to give to her." So, I got in line and got his autograph and told him I was a songwriter and would he PLEASE give Mandisa my songs. He said "Oh. You're a songwriter." I didn't feel as if he said that in a positive way. "Yes. Will you please give this to her." "Well, I don't know if she's accepting cds or not." I don't remember what I said but he kept them, and we left. That wasn't the miracle I'd hoped for. Really that wasn't a miracle at all, or was it. I was so close to Mandissa, but I couldn't quite get to her. I thought for sure during that leaders meeting she'd be back there, but she wasn't. I'd hoped that the NewSong member would say, "I'll be glad to get this to her, and she'd be glad to get it." But none of that happened. Timing is everything. God's timing, not mine.

Are you like me today??? No, I don't mean addicted to coffee, I mean with a door slamming in your face that you just knew you were meant to walk through. But have you ever considererd that it's a miracle that God has the love for us that he'll slam a door in our face if we're gonna go somewhere we're not meant to, or maybe not yet? We often define love as giving us what we want, when and how we want it. But God loves us too much to give us what is less than best. We have a free will which explains how we get less than His best, we choose it. We claim that He did it, but uh-uh-uh, we chose our own way.

I have quite the habit of all this. I put God on time tables, I threaten, I dream up things sometimes, and forge ahead and fall flat on my face.

So I said all that to say this "God thank you that Mandisa didn't accept my song last night." What a miracle!!