Gigi's Blog

I know what I was doin' 18 years ago at this moment.  Experiencing labor pain.  That's right, Meagan is 18 today.  None of us can believe it.  It seems like about a day ago she puttered around and could barely talk.  I think one of my funniest memories is when she was in 3rd I received a phone call from her teacher.  "Mrs. Pasour, I just wanted to ask you if you signed Meagan's folder today?"  I told her that I'd forgotten.  She said "OK good.  Because I was going to tell you that if you'd signed it, you'd mispelled your own name."  In other words, Meagan signed it for me.  It cost her conduct points, but I laugh when I think about it.  You know God has molded her into a very caring person.  People always say "You don't look old enough to be her mom."  Well, it's because I"m not.  I was  teenage mom.  I always think new people who don't me are trying to figure in their head if that's what happened.  I've been through alot, and so has Meagan.  I will always believe the ones to suffer most from divorce are children.  You'll never convince me otherwise.  But today, we're not thinking about all that.  We're going to celebrate her life. We got her a camera, and Mark cooked a huge breakfast for her, which neither of us had time to take one bite of.  It was a stressful morning with Chloe, because she didn't like the jacket I picked out for her, and didn't like the fact that I didn't have time to go back in and get another one.  She had a stomach attack last night and I think she's very tired and grumpy because of that.  I didn't even know until this morning that this happened.  Mark got up with her, and I didn't even hear.  I was extremely tired last night. I'd decided I was going to eat dinner when I got home from church, but was too tired.  So, I didn't eat, I just went to bed. The house was left in a total mess this morning, and I was still late!  I would say back to normal, but oh how I don't want this to be my normal.

Last night during Vision one of my class members shared some concerns about being a young mom, with a young child and guilt she feels about different things.  I was then able to share with her that I was a teenage mom, and understand the struggles.  It seemed to help her somewhat that I could say, "I know exactly where you're coming from."

Alot of people don't talk about their past, because people who didn't know them during that time might look down on them when they find out how they were. But I know that God wants me to be a tool of encouragement and hope, especially to young mothers who are where I've been.

Is there a part of your past that might help bring a change in someone's future?  I know it might be tough to "expose" yourself, but like the apostle Paul, people will open up when you can relate to their struggle.

 I Timothy: 12-14I'm so grateful to Christ Jesus for making me adequate to do this work. He went out on a limb, you know, in trusting me with this ministry. The only credentials I brought to it were invective and witch hunts and arrogance. But I was treated mercifully because I didn't know what I was doing—didn't know Who I was doing it against! Grace mixed with faith and love poured over me and into me. And all because of Jesus.  15-19Here's a word you can take to heart and depend on: Jesus Christ came into the world to save sinners. I'm proof—Public Sinner Number One—of someone who could never have made it apart from sheer mercy. And now he shows me off—evidence of his endless patience—to those who are right on the edge of trusting him forever.

You see the apostle Paul had a past, and he could have chosen to not speak about it.  But he knew when he said "I was the worst sinner" people would see how far Christ had brought him. 

If you've got a story that needs to be told, then tell it.  If you've been forgiven of your past by Christ, but are worried that others won't forgive, then they don't get it anyway. It's so tiring to try and act perfect, and I can't, because I'm not. 

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