Gigi's Blog

avoid godless chatter

visioncgbc | October 05, 2007 07:02

I have to start of this blog by saying GOD IS GOOD.  I feel very very good today, and I give 100% of the credit to Him.  Mon. thru Wed. I felt ok, and at times not even ok.  Yesterday I felt pretty good, but I was so weak.  But, today I feel great compared to  how I have felt.  I came to the realization a few nights ago, that the emptier my belly is, the less the stent bothers me.  So (I know most of you can't believe I'm doing this) I'm trying to eat mostly fruit, with very light meals.  My coffee consumption is up to about 4 cups in the morning.  Quite a change from the 16+ cups per day I drank this time a month ago. 

I'm trying to really cut back or secular TV when I'm home alone.  Two weeks ago I sat with romote in hand.  Click, click, click, click.  I realize now that it's depressing.  So, I watch anything Christian I can find, and then try not to watch hours and hours of purposeless (is that a word?) junk.  2 Timothy 2:16 Avoid godless chatter, because those who indulge in it will become more and more ungodly  

I have had and am still having people call me to tell me they're praying for me, and believing with, along with people telling me negative things about my Dr..  I'm trying to explain to them the principle of forgiveness.  As in how can I not forgive, and expect God to forgive me.  22-25Jesus was matter-of-fact: "Embrace this God-life. Really embrace it, and nothing will be too much for you. This mountain, for instance: Just say, 'Go jump in the lake'—no shuffling or shilly-shallying—and it's as good as done. That's why I urge you to pray for absolutely everything, ranging from small to large. Include everything as you embrace this God-life, and you'll get God's everything. And when you assume the posture of prayer, remember that it's not all asking. If you have anything against someone, forgive—only then will your heavenly Father be inclined to also wipe your slate clean of sins."   Do you see that last part???  I have to do this. I want my mountain to move, but it ain't goin' nowhere if I don't forgive.  But, I don't want to sound like I don't appreciate the thougt behind their anger.  I've been hurt, and they are hurting for me, and I'm grateful that people care.  Please don't think I'm not grateful. 

Both of my Dr.s have said that I can go to the songwriting semiar in 2 weeks, if I feel ok, and there's no real physical activity goin' on.  So, I've placed it completely in God's hands.  I've prayed if He wants me to go, I'll go.  If he doen't want me to go, I won't go. 

Please continue to pray for my family.  Mark is wearing every hat in our family, and it is wearing him out.  I've felt so helpless , but I know The One who offers the real help.  I want to be there for him and the kids, and I'm not, and that's been hard.  But, I'm praying for them constantly, and trusting God to fill in the gaps. 

I haven't lost hope in modern medicine, but I now have greater hope and understanding that every moment of my life is in God's hands.  I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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