Gigi's Blog

The bad and the beautiful

visioncgbc | August 19, 2008 06:27

I got home yesterday and received what, for me at least, seemed like extremely discouraging news.  As I shared a few months back my Dr. diagnosed me with a daytime sleep disorder (which basically means I’m sleepy all the time), put the word idiopathic in front of it, (which basically means they don’t know why) prescribed me medication (which basically has radically changed the way I feel).  Sounds good, huh?  Well as I also shared the Dr. said there might be a problem with my insurance covering the medication, because there’s no generic.  He assured me that he had pre-cert employees who deal with insurance regularly, and this would be taken care of.  So, I believed him.  Racking up bills for the medication, but not worrying because he said it was going to be taken care of.  I contacted my insurance company who told me the same thing.  Well, after about 4 or 5 months we’ve racked up $300x5 and it is not taken care of.  I have begun the appeals process and scheduled a phone interview with their appeals people on Thursday.  I called my Dr. Office assuming he’d be willing to participate since he told me he would do ANYTHING to make this happen for me when all this started.  Well, his office called me back yesterday and said that the Dr. said the best thing for me would be for him to refer me to a neurologist and have a sleep study conducted.  The problem is with the medication and what it’s approved by the FDA to treat.  It’s too complicated to explain, but suffice it to say, I believe my best, and most certainly easiest and logical next step would be for the Dr. to at least make an attempt to say “This medication is helping Gina.”  to my insurance company. But, now I’ve been told the easiest thing would be to have a sleep study which involves an overnight hospital stay and to go to a specialist.  To me that isn’t easy. 

The other bummer was that Adam called and said he forgot to buy a meal plan at college.  It might not sound like a big deal, but this ain’t the price of a lunchroom meal plan from elementary school.  Now the little bit of money he was gonna have in case of emergency is gone. 

Excuse me while I go take 14 extra strength Tylenol.

Ok, I’m back.

I was sitting on the couch for a few minutes alone last night and fighting back tears.  I wasn’t angry at God.  I wasn’t angry with Mark.  I wasn’t angry with anyone.  I was just

drained.  I tried to fight it off, and went upstairs. 

Then came the beautiful.  The phone rang and it was Holly.  We don’t usually talk past 10:00, and it was after that.  “I just got a text from Tiffany.  It says that her and Carson and Victoria got saved and to pray.”  I said something like “Holly, now don’t you lie to me!”  “Gina, I’m serious.  I’ll forward you the text.”  See, the reason I said that is because we have been praying and praying and praying and praying about this.  A few weeks back Tiffany was home for the weekend and during the invitation Roger said “God is dealing with someone” and I knew it was Tiff.  She was sitting in front of me and I mean I felt it so strong.  I prayed for her the entire time.  She didn’t go forward.  After it was over Roger said “I know God is still dealing with someone.”  I told Holly after the service that I knew beyond the shadow of a doubt it was Tiffany.  I think God was working on Tiffany and has been.  

In case you don’t know, Tiffany is Holly’s sister and my first cousin, Carson is her husband and Victoria is Carson’s sister.  Apparently Victoria encountered someone yesterday who invited her to a revival and they all went.  During the revival the congregation was asked if they knew with certainty their eternal destination.  They all realized they didn’t know.  They then realized they needed to know, and asked Jesus to lead their lives. 

It’s so tempting to be consumed with me and my struggles and miss what’s most important. 

Oh God thank you!!  Oh God thank you!!  I know Heaven's rejoicing with us here on Earth. 

Ephesians 2:8-9 (The Message)

 7-10Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. It's God's gift from start to finish! We don't play the major role. If we did, we'd probably go around bragging that we'd done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing.

 

 

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