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letting go, looking ahead

visioncgbc | May 27, 2008 07:37

Our hearts are breaking right now. Janice (Richard's mom) it appears (unless God chooses to intervene) will be leaving for eternity soon.  Richard and Holly as well as their children, Janice's other family members and Janice will be embarking on an entirely new life for this last part of hers. She wants to die at home.  Someone will have to be with her at all times.  24x7.  There are about 4 or 5 people taking this task on.  Two being Richard and Holly who will see very little of each other.  I don't have the wisdom to know what to pray.  So, I'm praying what's in my heart and asking God to do whatever is His perfect will.  Rachel and Rebekah will no doubt need our prayers.  I remember when my mamaw passed away, I was grown (33) but I was still crushed.  I knew she was in heaven, but I also knew I wouldn't see her until I was in heaven.  Rachel and Rebekah are 10 and 6 and Janice has been very involved in their lives on a daily basis since each of their births.  Please lift them up. 

We spent the entire weekend in preperation for yesterday.  Meagan's graduation party. Mother and me and Chloe headed out Saturday.  We ordered trays and bought drinks and lots of other stuff.  Sunday we decorated (no evening service).  We put out pictures from birth up until now on each table.  Yesterday was just flat out crazy. But, when 5:00 rolled around, we were ready.  My father-in-law had a huge poster made of Meagan that said "Meagan grows up" with pictures of her from birth until now.   She invited our youth group and some friends from her school. Her family came out to support her in full force, including Adam who came home from college.    I think the funniest thing from the entire night was when I was welcoming everyone and started boo-hooing, and my lil' cuz Miles started making fun of me.  It helped me get my crying under control.  I think everyone had a good time, most importantly Meagan.  I have to thank my mother.  She and I were together for three days in a row constantly and she really worked hard to help me. I have to thank Mark who put up with my "not nice" moments for three days as well as put up every bit of the stuff when we got home. Now you might think that was a simple task, but it was not.  Megan Blanton helped out from literally 12:00 until the party was over and beyond.  Tracy T. and Leah also helped clean up.  Thank you to them as well as every person there as well as every person who's impacted Meagan. I said it last night and I'll say it again, I can't take credit for the person Meagan is.  God's has flooded me with mercy in the young lady she's become.  

Proverbs 27:23

 23 Be sure you know the condition of your flocks,
       give careful attention to your herds;

Last night I was talking to Meagan's uncle Kevin.  Thanking him for the impact he and Meagan's aunt Stacie have had on Meagan's life.  He talked about how much time he felt has went by so fast.  He's in the Air Force and has been gone quite a bit, for not only Meagan, but things in his own three children's lives.  I told him that I believe they know our hearts.  They know if we are doing are best.

So as I'm thinking about letting go, and looking ahead, I want to know the condition of each and every person God wants me to have any sort of an impact on.

God help us all,

Amen 

 

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