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Mommy knows best

visioncgbc | March 20, 2008 12:06

Last night if you were at church maybe you noticed that me and my mom and Mark were all sitting on the same row, but strangely distant from each other.  Mark is sick.  He'd decided that he wasn't going to go to church he was so sick.  I went in Chloe's room to start getting her ready for church and I could tell something was wrong with her.  I asked her and she wouldn't answer me until she finally said "I thought Daddy was gonna be there to see me for Bible drils."  Then the floodgate of Chloe drama came gushing out until Mark said "I'm going.  Chloe just stop crying.  I"m going."  So he did.  When my mother saw Mark out of the corner of her eye she said "Don't you come close to me Mark.  I mean it."  She literally scooted to the corner of the pew she was sitting on and moved all her stuff, and not only would she not sit close to Mark, she wouldn't even let me come close to her.  Then I started getting paranoid and thought "maybe I shouldn't be too close to Mark."  So I sat really far from my mother, and sort of far from Mark.  It looked funny. 

My mom has the "gift" of brutal honesty.  She always has.  You don't have to wonder her opinion or what she's thinking because she'll be the first to tell you.  Good.  Bad.  Ugly. 

My mom and I are opposites, and sometimes I wish I could just let my true felling out like her, but I don't.  I hold it in, and internalize, and stew, sometimes.  But my mom just "says it".  Gets her feeling out in the open. 

Sometimes I fret over being honest about my life concerning God.  If I feel confused or rejected or hurt,  I think I can't be honest.  Surely feelings other than marvelous should be pushed way down into a secret place to never be discussed.

Job 1:20 At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship 21 and said:
       "Naked I came from my mother's womb,
       and naked I will depart. [c]
       The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
       may the name of the LORD be praised."

 22 In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing.

Job 2:10 He replied, "You are talking like a foolish [b] woman. Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?"
      In all this, Job did not sin in what he said.

Job was up in heaven unaware that God wasn't the giver of his problems, and he was honest about it.  "God's given and He's taken.  Blessed be his name." He was honest but didn't sin. 

 Psalm 10:1 Why, O LORD, do you stand far off?
       Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?

I mean as you can see, David wasn't mincing words here.  "God where are you??"  Do you remember what God said about David? Acts 13:22After removing Saul, he made David their king. He testified concerning him: 'I have found David son of Jesse a man after my own heart; he will do everything I want him to do.' Maybe God wanted this honesty.  Maybe we could be honest.  Maybe this burial of our true feelings isn't working.  I'm not sure who I'm trying to convince here-you or me?

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