Gigi's Blog

We all make mistakes

visioncgbc | October 24, 2007 05:41

I'm going to start this blog from today and then go backwards.  I'm doing this in order to ensure you read the entire long blog.  Don't quit reading before the end.  That's where the good stuff is.

I'm back at work today.  I never thought I'd ever say I'd be glad to be at work.  But, I couldn't wait to get here and suprise everyone.  And it's been so fun to see the shock.  I'm feeling good today, really better than yesterday.  I think my body needed more fluids than I'd taken in over the past few days, so yesterday afternoon I really tried to drink tons of water.

I went to the Dr. yesterday.  It was the first time I've seen the Dr. who performed my surgery since he did my post-op and thought everything was fine, when it actually was not.  I prayed alot before hand and even up until the moment  I saw him, that I would show the love of Christ.  I didn't want to have the attitude that I was a wonderful person because I wanted to forgive him.   I prayed that if he acted like nothing happened that God would help me be ok with that.  He walked in and was devestated.  He apoligized at least 20 times.  None of the Dr.s that I've seen throughout this would admit to any wrong doing.  But he didn't try to dance around what happened.  He told me he knew what he'd done.  He said that he had stitched my ureter and my unbearable pain was because of the stitch.  I can't tell you what peace I had in finally know exactly what had happened.  He continue to tell me how sorry he was and I said "We all make mistakes."  I told him that my prayer had been that through this situation it might prevent anyone else from going through this.  He told me that he was going to pray for me.  I honestly don't know how close of  relationship he has with Christ, but I thought "How cool if out of this it caused him to have a closer walk with the Lord!"

Now to the best part of the story.  Things that I consider amazing happened at the conference last weekend.  First of all-me even going! When I arrived I found Sue to let her know I'd made it.  It took her several minutes to even realize it was me.  I got about a million hugs from everybody over the weekend, and anybody who knew me was in total shock that I made it.  The first thing when I walked in the door I had a meeting with what I consider a major publisher.  I had no time to print all my lyrics, just the three songs I was taking.  He asked me some questions about me and my songwriting.  He asked me if he could see some of my lyrics.  I only had 1 song available to show him, because he didn't want to see the songs I was entering in the competition.  He asked me if I'd SING it to him!!  I did.  He told me I had a gift, and needed to pursue songwrting.  He also matched me up with a new friend who lives in Raleigh. He said he feels like we'd be a really good co-writing team.  So, I'm looking forward to that.  I then took that same song to a critique.  It got very good feedback, and I heard again that this was a good song.  It needed some minor changes.  So during my next class I was so obsessed with rewriting it, I struggled to pay attention as I rewrote the song.  Saturday was the competition.  Keep in mind that the song I entered was done on Chloe's karaoke cassette player with no music.  But, that was all I had.  The judges for my group consisted of a seasoned writer, and an up and coming performer/writer.  The songs in my group were really good.  When my song was played I wasn't as nervous as I thought I'd be.  After it played they both said they really liked the song.  Words were used like "strong payoff" and those are words you want to hear.  I was glad when it was over and ready to finish my day.  That night before supper I prayed "Lord, I'm praying that I will place, and that I will leave with a substantial contact."  Because it had been made clear that it's a no-no to try to contact them afterwards or to assume that you can just go to Nashville to visit them. They will contact you, or invite you, or reach out to you.  My group was #1, and of all things they started with the last group instead of the first!  So, finally they got to group #1.  The third place winner was announced.  When that happened I felt pretty sure that I didn't place because of the order I had the songs in my mind.  Then they said it "And second place goes to..........Regina Pasour!"  I think I was clapping more than those in the audience.  Sue said "I have to tell you the miracle of Gina being here."  Then everyone got really excited.  Prayer #1-answered.  After the other awards and the grand prize, everyone was going around talking to people.  I went up to my 2 judges and thanked them both for the boost this award was in my confidence.  The 2nd judge I thanked told me my song was very strong, and told me he believes it could get cut after some minor changed.  He then said "I'd love to hear it when you get it demo'd.  Do you have a pen?  I'll give you my e-mail address."  Prayer #2-answered!  Then Sat. night we went to a local coffeehouse, and some people sang.  It was a dream that was real.  

My demo is scheduled for Nov. 5th.  I didn't want to wait, and my Dad told me he's gonna send me a lil' money to help with it. 

Is God asking you to do something radical, but you're scared or feel unworthy?  God absolutely loves for the broken, messed up, uneducated and needy to be lifted up to give Him glory. 

I Corinthians 1:26-31Take a good look, friends, at who you were when you got called into this life. I don't see many of "the brightest and the best" among you, not many influential, not many from high-society families. Isn't it obvious that God deliberately chose men and women that the culture overlooks and exploits and abuses, chose these "nobodies" to expose the hollow pretensions of the "somebodies"? That makes it quite clear that none of you can get by with blowing your own horn before God. Everything that we have—right thinking and right living, a clean slate and a fresh start—comes from God by way of Jesus Christ. That's why we have the saying, "If you're going to blow a horn, blow a trumpet for God."

                                                     

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